My first attempt was 2017 (UPSC) score was 86.5, I missed the prelims by few marks thereafter, I missed my 2020 attempt by 0.5 marks After, every attempt I failed prelims 5 times (2017,2018,2019,2020,2021), I completely lost hopes in civil services, my motivation was so low, I stayed away from family functions and meeting relatives and even talking with friends.

I analyzed my strengths and weakness and come to the conclusion to appear in the state PCS (Karnataka) and kept my preparation parallelly and given attempts to my luck I qualified prelims, mains and out of final list. (2 marks below the cutoff)

this was great shock and setback in my life, meanwhile I decided to explore alternative carrier and started as consultant in National Agriculture Extension and Research management. (MANAGE)

life was going easy because, backup plan is always less risky and accepting low paid job, then decided to prepare again in state PCS, qualified prelims and wrote mains, while returning to Hyderabad, I met with accident and got two legs broken.

I, was hospitalized and bed rest for almost 5 months, there was complete break to preparation, loss of pay for the job and became completely depended on barrowing from friends.

This phase was one of the most difficult and indigestible part of my life, but as there is saying “After every darkness there is light in the life”
I, was again shortlisted for the interview in KAS, I was self-doubt and in dilemma again, because I was totally away from my preparation and time was very short for my interview.

After a week of interview results was announced and I was in the list of 106 list of KAS officers and allotted commercial tax Department.
My, message to all other aspirants, never settle for small things, keep back up but, it should be short term break and come and give one more try.
I can do WHY CAN’T YOU?

Regards

Meherunissa Begum KAS -2020